Good Morrow dA.

Seems one of us is having a good day. And i bet its not you.

I woke up around 1 in the morning, and just felt relax. The first time in a few days actually.

Seeing as this is a place that my thoughts and feelings are more so hidden from the eyes of my parental units and such, i can be more candid with you than i could elsewhere. So feel loved.

This past week or so, (for those who are hip with what's going down) has been what can only be taken as a huge ego trip.

An extreme high (maybe too high??) to rolling around holding the crotch of my new slightly bruised ego.

And i feel that the reason she was beaten, in a sense, was for my big headed-ness.

The "winning" I was sure I was doing was probably just nothing more than a lean of someone I was hoping would come along and be that guy.

You know the one, not like "What's wrong with that guy" But that guy i was hoping to kinda of change my perception of men in the smoking desert I call my current home.

And according to everyone that has had to deal with me being rather, I'm not sure the word for it is exactly "pissy" but slightly unsure of my own worth I suppose is a better way to put it, I am still on the list, I haven't completely lost and I should take advantage of this fact and know that though some are "gorgeous", I am me, and that means more than any type of beauty. (Though I too am quite pretty (ego alert)

Anyway.
This is what happens when I wake up in the morning and have access to the internet. My brain starts working, and I come into viewing things that I might not have known otherwise.

I'm going to have a rather good day I hope anyway. Spending time with one of my very good friends should make all the indifference of this weekend just slide right off my skin.

Thanks to all of my friends who have been there for me, dealing with all the different stages of this past week, the winning ego, the unsure one, and the bruised cunt ego (excuse the language if it offends).

Good Morrow dA.

Seems one of us is having a good day. And I'm sure its not you.