Ive figured it out. Why my everything i touch turns to cold. Cause im not a whole, im a hallow deep within. ((damnit bleach XD)) Ive come to notice things about myself, that make others, even the crazier ones..normal. I cant say i didn't think this already was a problem but now i know why so many things i have tried, fail. This i wished for, i didn't get. And people i care about, either leave me, die, or get taken away.
Its crazy, i never thought there was a real answer, i thought it was just because i had bad luck, or i wasn't supposed to have a blessed life like everyone else. but i knew there had to be something other than that because its not fair for me to get some and not all of none in some cases. Its just something that i cant control, well i can but at this point its almost wouldn't even help if i tried. I just wish that something would happen and i would know when to change everything back.
One day, i guess that will change ((about 4 years from now))
But till then, im on my own. Nothing but the stars to guide me and my friends to help me when the lights go out.